SECTION TWO - PERSONAL INSTRUCTIONS TO DISCIPLES (Continued) - Part 4
I seek now to give you a meditation form which is based on a recognition of this fact and which will help you to gain a more perfect alignment and the further release of the inner channel of contact. Continue as heretofore with the breathing exercises and with your moments before the open window. This meditation is to be followed with the cultivated realisation that you are the soul, the Christ within....
Eliminate fear, my brother. That continuity of the spiritual consciousness which is one of your dearest dreams can be ultimately developed, but you must proceed with care. Dreams are sometimes a guarantee of reality.
There is little that I have to say to you at this time, brother of old. I seek not to change your work or meditation. You  have followed the one I assigned for only six months and I seek to have you work at it for a full year. One change only would I make and that is in connection with the third point and the use of the Lord's Prayer. Instead of pondering on the words of that prayer, I give you here some sentences which I would ask you to make especially your own, for they are peculiarly yours. There are three such sentences and you might regard them as constituting a magical phrase for each of your three bodies. You should all remember that ancient phrases (such as these I ofttimes give) are really untranslatable; I but put them into English words which will make their meaning clear. I make no attempt to preserve more than the sense.
Phrase I. For the mind.
"Like a golden butterfly which flies in the face of the sun, I find myself poised upon the lotus petal of the earth. I hover; I stay a little moment and then I fly—into the golden pathway that leads unto the sun."
Phrase II. For the emotional nature.
"There is no darkness and no fog. There is no night or day. There are no storms nor peace, no rest nor strife; only the steadfast will of God which works toward good."
Phrase III. For the physical body.
"Down from the mountain top I come, bringing the light of Life, the life of Light. Into the chalice of the form I pour that light which life confers, this life which light sustains. I see this golden light transform the darkness into day. I see the blue of life divine pour through the form, healing and soothing. Thus is the task performed. Thus is a man of earth transformed into a Son of God."
Give the coming months to these three phrases in your meditation and ponder deeply on their significance.
1st and 2nd months—Phrase I.
3rd and 4th months—Phrase II.
5th and 6th months—Phrase III.
Otherwise keep your meditation unchanged. One of the purposes of these meditation seed thoughts is the physical transformation  of the lower man, but your success will be dependent upon the changes wrought in the two inner, subtler bodies through the medium of the first two phrases....
Let the discipline of light carry on its work with you. And, my brother, may I make one practical suggestion to you? Your main problem from the angle of the soul is a physical one in this incarnation. Your tenseness and over-anxiety cause much of your physical disability.
To most of your co-disciples and to you I feel the need of saying simply: Be joyful, for joy lets in the light, and where there is joy there is little room for glamour and misunderstanding.
BROTHER OF OLD:
The next few months, until the time of the Wesak Festival, must be for you months of inner recognition, of a spiritual withdrawing and of intense preparation. Though you may not see immediately, or during the Festival itself, the significant aims of this period of opportunity, or of your previous weeks of preparation, that is of no importance really for the gains will be there and will register in due course of time.
The ajna centre (the centre between the eyebrows) is overactive whilst the head centre should be stimulated into increased aliveness. This, as it takes place through the steady focussing of yourself in the head centre, may induce a period wherein it may seem to you that nothing is happening subjectively. This, again, is of no importance. The time has come wherein all true disciples (and such indeed are you) must transmute phenomena into spiritual realisation; then instead of the constant registering of that which is seen and heard, there will arise a spiritual awareness which will register bliss and power. This will enable you to see the soul in all things and the inward beauty of all created forms. This awareness will be of such a high order that it will deal primarily with that which is formless, and its attention will be turned upon the subjective life which exists within the form. Such is the true course of symbolism to which you, as a disciple, are pledged.
Your love and knowledge should begin to lead you more and more into the way of the divine psychologist; it is to the service of psychology that I direct your attention and to which you will find yourself pledged when next you take the Path of Rebirth and return to the battlefield of life. For you, today, the battle is one of endurance, of the control of the emotions, of the right understanding of the astral nature and a steady shift of your point of consciousness on to the next plane. I think, my brother, that you recognise this fact.
Meditate upon the following mystic phrases and where colour is mentioned, visualise the colour.
Phrase One. First and second months.
"The golden rays that issue from the heart of the sun pour forth and bathe my soul and the soul of all created forms. Within those forms, the life of God awakens, and the power of God streams forth as Will, as dedication to the Plan, as strength to work and give—as must a son of God."
Phrase Two. Third and fourth months.
"Within the darkness of the soul, prisoned within the form, a point of light is seen. Then there arises, all around that point, a field of deepest blue and this becomes irradiated by the soul, the inner sun, shining within a brilliant field of blue. The points of light become the many lines or rays of light; these lines then merge and blend until the lighted Way appears before the eyes of each tired pilgrim on that Way. He walks in light. He is himself the light, the light upon the Way. He is the Way and always walks thereon."
Phrase Three. Fifth and sixth months.
"With industry I work as doth the ant. With speed I travel as moves the hare upon its path. With joy I climb as doth the goat which scales the precipice and stands upon the mountain top. Industry, speed and joy must be the keynotes of my life; diligence with the task assigned; speed to assent to all the Master says; speed on my way to service; and joy to shower forth on all I meet. Such is the Way for me."
BROTHER OF MINE:
All severing of links produces severe reactions. Yet if you could but realise it, the severing of outer physical plane links is the least severe and the most impermanent of all such events. Death itself is a part of the great illusion and only exists because of the veils which we have gathered around ourselves. You, as a worker in the field of glamour (which is the new field in which humanity has consciously to work), have been deeply honoured and trusted. Death comes to all, but not for you should there be the usual glamours and distresses. I would say to you, my brother, look not back at the past. In that direction lies glamour and distress. It is the usual direction and the line of least resistance for the majority. But such is not the way for you. Look not either to revelation or the imparted illusory comfort of those who hover on the dividing line between the seen and the unseen. That way is not the way for you. You are not a distressed and bereaved disciple looking anxiously at the separating veil and hoping for some sign to come through which will convince you that all is well. Such, I reiterate, is not the way for you.
Reach up to the heights of the soul and, having sought and found that pinnacle of peace and that altitude of joy whereon your soul immovably stands, then look into the world of living men—a threefold world in which all men, incarnate and discarnate are found. Find there that which your soul can and will recognise. The glamours of one's own distress, the maya of the past distorts one's point of view. Only the soul stands clear from illusion, and only the soul sees things as they are. Mount, therefore, to the soul.
I would like here to point out to you that earlier I gave you a hint that there might arise a need for you to call for added strength, and the need, perhaps to intensify your inner contact with myself. I gave you "permission thus to call." I foresaw the agony of your coming months and sought to have you know  that I was standing by. This I still am doing. I remind you of this for the strengthening of your faith, the deepening of your assurance and your integration in this group work.
I shall not at this time change your meditation work. As outlined, it should serve gradually to stabilise you and lift you up on to the mental plane. Force of circumstances has driven you to live much upon the astral plane for the past few months in an emotional vortex. Mount up, my brother, into the light and into renewed power and detachment. Find surcease from sorrow in the task of aiding others. You can call and find me if your need is great.
You are entering upon a new cycle of life and of usefulness. You stand on the verge of opportunity and yet you seem to recognise it not. You are ready for complete service and yet you hide yourself away from it. You have the capacity and the time, could you but grasp it, and likewise the needed physical strength to be an active focal point for us and yet you hold back in your mind and consciousness and seem to realise it not. I have put the truth thus bluntly to you, for you are a strong and pledged disciple, and you do not fear the knowledge of reality.
You have passed across the burning ground and now it lies behind you, but the smoke which hovers round it still obscures your vision. Pass on with rapidity into the clear light of day and leave behind remembrance of pain, of the heart-searching and the problems and —lifting your face to the light—for the remainder of this earthly way be a tower of strength and a radiant light to others. This you can do.
If I could summarise my thought for you, my brother, I would clothe it in words of great simplicity and would say to you: Be happy. Be happy as the sannyasin is happy who (through detachment from the little self and attachment to the greater Self in all) has left behind all that might hinder and hamper his service. Henceforth, you belong not to yourself or to any earthly friend or claim. You belong to the servers of humanity and to us.
I give you no particular meditation to do these next six months. Occupy yourself with the group meditation and with the Full Moon Contact. These are for you of greater usefulness than the personal daily meditation. For you, they constitute your major service. My instructions to all the group members have been brief this time. I gave you all much in my last communication and not yet have you assimilated all that I gave. Study the messages again, all of you, and see anew in the light of the new year and fresh day of opportunity.
A very difficult half year has gone by for you. You have come through it, and it is with commendation that I look at you today. That is all that I have to say, I am pleased. I know that for you that suffices. If you stand steady with an open heart, a seeing eye and a ready response to all who come your way, the door to renewed service will open and much can be done by you. My brother, you have the power to help individuals, and you have an unusual capacity to fan a dim spark into a white-hot flame. Do not distrust yourself, but go ahead. Your field of service lies all around you.
The problem that has to be faced by all who have passed through the fires of Renunciation, who are walking the way of humility whilst conscious of the grandeur of the soul, and who are, at the same time, far from young in years is that of facing the last decade or so of life with understanding, and with no fear of physical limitations. So many in the final years of life live, think and act in such a manner that the soul withdraws its attention. Thus only the personality remains. To all of you who have passed the half century I would say: Face the future with the same joy as in youth, yet with an added usefulness, knowing that the wisdom of experience is yours, the power to understand is yours, and that no physical limitation can prevent a soul from useful expression and service. I would remind you of something which is often forgotten: It is far easier for the soul to express itself through an older experienced body than through one that is young and inexperienced, provided  that there is no pride and no desired selfishness, but only longing to love and serve. These are your desires and the future holds for you much service.
It will be of interest to you now if I tell you of the rays which govern the lower self.
Your mental body is governed by the fourth ray, and if you study this the reasons for many of your life reactions will become apparent to you. There is little of the first ray line of energy 1-3-5-7 in your equipment, but almost an overbalance of the second ray line 2-4-6. You will note that all these three appear in your equipment.
This condition is still further complicated by the fact that you have a first ray astral body. This is again an exception to the usual rule. In the case of the disciple who is occupied with some particular rounding-out process this exception does occur, and the first ray personality of your last incarnation left you the legacy of a first ray astral body in this. Therefore, in this particular life, you have a very difficult task and a complicated problem because (if I might so crudely express it) there is in you too much of the second ray.
To aid in the process of balancing and off-setting the danger, your soul chose a seventh ray physical body. This is of real assistance to you and helps in the synthesis of the two lines of energy. Your rays therefore are:
1. The soul ray—the second Ray of Love-Wisdom.
2. The personality ray—the sixth Ray of Devotion or Idealism.
3. The ray of the mental body—the fourth Ray of Harmony through Conflict.
4. The ray of the astral body—the first Ray of Will or Power.
5. The ray of the physical body—the seventh Ray of Ceremonial Order.
I would ask you to follow the meditation and continue with the breathing exercises that you are now doing. There is no need at this time to change what I last gave you. During the half year ahead I would counsel you particularly to give much time and attention to the Full Moon Approach. I would also like to assign you a special task which will be of value to  you, to your group brothers and to others. Will you gather out of all that I have given in my books, everything that has been said about the Full Moon. There is no need, however, to give long extracts or to copy out my detailed instructions of the Buddha's Full Moon in May. I want you to gather together out of those long instructions and from many isolated passages the reasons:
a. For the importance of the Full Moon.
b. What should be done and happen at the time of the Full Moon.
c. Any information that you may find of the cause of the spiritual opportunity.
BROTHER OF MINE:
In these instructions I have given my disciples much information re the fourth ray, for so many of them have fourth ray mentalities. This is not a very usual state of affairs at this time and is one of the major reasons for their being chosen to form part of this group. The possession of a fourth ray mind is an essential factor in my planned work and I would have you ponder deeply on this fact. You have, outstandingly, this type of mind, and it is going to be of real service to your group if you will learn to focus yourself there more easily and, shall I say, more frequently. Your personality ray is naturally very dominant and should give you power upon the astral plane—the plane of your chosen work. But this attitude must be balanced by the attitudes of the fourth ray mind. I would like here to point out that
1. Your soul ray seeks expression through your astral body.
2. Your personality ray is focussed in your seventh ray brain.
If you will think out these imparted facts with care, you will see that the bringing together of the personality ray and the ray governing your physical body presents you with a very definite problem. It produces an over-interest and over-emphasis upon the form side of manifestation and group expression. This leads to a devotion to the known forms. It is this  focussing of your personality ray which is the psychic cause of the headaches to which you have been prone. Mistake me not here, my brother. I do not say that you have undue interest in form as it affects your personality. You are definitely the observer and "look out upon a world distressed." Your ray combinations lead to a quick reaction to the existent forms instead of leading to a long range vision of the Plan, such as your soul ray can give. You need increasingly to focus yourself in the soul and less and less in the personality consciousness. This will produce the expression of love through devotion to all men as souls, and not of devotion to forms and methods which your personality ray approves.
Your service is, as I earlier pointed out to you, the task of "lifting" individuals and clearing away the problems which confront them. Increasingly, you must also stand with your group, giving them the knowledge which is so abundantly yours. You have a few personal glamours, but they are not of the kind which hurt your group. You see with clarity the outlines of the task ahead to which the group is dedicated. For long you have tried to help L.T.S-K. to free himself from the rhythm of his glamours. Will you continue still a little while the effort to help him, writing to him in frankness and standing by him in love?
The group meditation is of importance to you and to all the group, for it holds in it the seeds of group integration. Continue, therefore, with it. I give you, however, a brief morning exercise to be done prior to the group meditation.
1. After achieving alignment, inner poise and rest, see each of your co-disciples (whom you may know) in the light.
2. Then visualise them each with a star between the eyebrows, as the symbol of an awakened ajna centre and of an integrated personality. It is a four-pointed star. The star of initiation is, as you know, a five-pointed star.
3. Then say something to each of your brothers, after due effort to link up with them. Study the ideas which give utterance to your words and note, in writing, their general import.
4. Then rise, and going to the window, send out love and light to those who guide the destinies of men upon the  earth (I refer not to the Hierarchy) in London, Leningrad, Washington, Berlin, Geneva and in Rome. Do this with as much love as you can and without much thought, for thought can be separative and critical where there is not adequate knowledge. This is an initial part of the technique of dissipating group glamour.
5. Then sound the O.M., raising your consciousness and coming as close to the Hierarchy as possible.
This last year has not been an easy one for you any more than it has been for your group brothers. Each and all have had a most difficult time. Your problems have been psychological far more than physical; they are relatively simple in definition, though hard to solve. Perhaps I could express what I have to say best by remarking that the main part of your difficulties has been a wrestling with bewilderment—a bewilderment which is not a glamour but which could easily become one if your soul were not so constantly and definitely guiding, controlling and leading you away from the more pronounced glamours of which it could be the tiny seed. Bewilderment is a state of incipient glamour. The way out for you is not to concern yourself with the world problem which is too great for you to handle. The entire planetary Hierarchy is concerned with it and is seeking a solution. Yet the plans for the world of humanity are materialising and maturing; the world situation is moving ahead with such rapidity that the average aspirant and intelligent man has no sooner adjusted himself to certain conditions or to a particular attitude of thought and mind (which he with real difficulty has assumed), when sudden changes occur and the work—as far as he is concerned—has to be repeated.
So, my brother, stand controlled at the centre, permitting your soul to pour its illumination and its love through you and out into your environment, remembering that all men are your brothers. This is a statement of fact, e'en if it is a platitude. Remember also that in the setting where your personality stands at this time is the place where you will have to make your soul  impact; it is not upon the world in general. To meet world need and solve world problems is not your dharma. The world cannot be helped on a large scale by any one individual unless there has been complete release from all selfish intent, from all blind personality decisions, and from all belief that crystallised views are right, particularly when such views are unduly conditioned by environment, background, tradition and a myopic point of view.
So, brother of mine, release your thoughts from all that limits your love (from all, I repeat) and love widely, generally, impartially and intelligently.
I would have you note that the rays governing D.H.B. and J.S.P. very closely resemble yours. You have all three got the same soul ray, and the same ray governing the physical body. This should bring the three of you particularly close together; I would call this to your attention and ask you to stand with each other in the closest relation. You can form a triangle of spiritual force which should be of real value to the group and greatly facilitate the planned group work. Correspond with each other and stand by each other in love. All three of you have much with which to contend, but both the others have far more to contend with than you have. Therefore, be to them a tower of strength and let them draw from you what they need of love and understanding.
I would have you continue with the exercise I gave you in your last instruction. As a preparatory exercise for the group meditation, it will prove effective for it is along the same general line, only in the group meditation the work is more specific and focussed.
The factor which will produce increasing integration between the soul and the personality, in the case of D.H.B. and J.S.P. and yourself, is the attainment of the power to love with purity, with no sense of distinction, and with that love which the Eternal One shows—poured out alike upon all and not biassed in any way by the temporal activities of man. This must be based on long vision, and the power to release yourself from the thoughtform-making faculty of the mind. In your case this faculty is swept into activity by emotion. Guard your emotional body with peculiar care during the coming year. Let not anything  upset your equilibrium or cloud your vision of reality. And my brother, be happy. Learn to feel joy—a joy which is based on the knowledge that humanity has always triumphed and passed onward and forward in spite of apparent failures and the destruction of past civilisations; a joy, which is founded upon the unshakable belief that all men are souls, and that "points of crisis" are factors which are of proven usefulness in calling in the power of that soul, both in the individual man, in a race, or in humanity as a whole; a joy which is related to the bliss which characterises the soul on its own level whereon the form aspects of manifestation do not dominate. Ponder on these thoughts and remember you are grounded in the centre of your Being and can, therefore, see the world truly and with no limited vision; you can stand unperturbed, knowing the end from the beginning and realising that love will triumph.
God guard and rest you and increase fourfold your usefulness. Such is my prayer for you.
NOTE: This disciple still persists in his endeavour to work in the Tibetan's Ashram and remains steadfast and sure.
To L. U. T.
You face real opportunity and can make real progress, if you so desire. You are considerably younger than some in my group of disciples and have, therefore, less background and more undeveloped resources. You have passed and are passing through a hard experience and out of this you are not getting the full benefit. The reason for this is that you have built a shell around yourself owing to a natural sensitivity which—as a child and in your youth—caused you to protect yourself in this manner. Another reason for your failure to get all you might out of the present experience is the inordinate pride of the Taurus individual, who is on the first ray where his personality is concerned.
Will you let me speak with clarity, my brother? I believe in your sincerity and determination, but I have questioned your capacity to make progress in this life. It was, however, your  karmic due to have this opportunity offered to you. The doubt in my mind arose from my knowledge of the two tendencies in you which have hitherto held you back from the lighted Way.
One is a stubborn determination to go your own way and handle situations as you choose, e'en when others suffer through your so doing. You go bull-headed through life, knocking down and hurting as you go. This you know full well. You stop not to right or to adjust wrong action, e'en when you recognise it as wrong. The second is a tendency of thought and action which must be cleaned up before you can pass through the doors of purification which hide the door of Initiation. More about this hindering activity I need not say, for you know well whereof I speak. I offer you the way out in four simple rules:
1. Clean up your thought life. I shall not be more explicit. Again I say: You know whereof I speak.
2. Eliminate self-pity. All that comes to you is the working of the law and offers opportunity. Cultivate happiness through understanding. I mean not jocoseness and jollity.
3. Think lovingly of all and, when you have hurt anyone, right the wrong immediately and go forward with humility.
4. Demonstrate will in action and live up to your own high moments. This takes effort. You are stubborn but your will is weak.
As regards the work that you now should do, I would say: Drop all meditation which you may now be doing and concentrate on these four rules. Learn to know the soul as purity, as bliss, as love and as power in service. Do not reflect on the needs of the personality or on its lacks and defects. You need the mystic vision far more than the occult method just now. The keeping of a spiritual diary is of real importance to you. Learn to keep these four rules and note each day their fulfilment or non-fulfilment with careful analysis. In a few months you should be able to note definite change and then can begin meditation along occult lines. Learn to express yourself quite fully in your diary, for you need to find an outlet in this way.
BROTHER OF MINE:
It is not often that one speaks a word of encouragement to aspirants, and in your case such a word is not needed. You have undertaken a task and will not rest short of accomplishment. But you were told that, for a few months, certain work needed doing and, at the close, fresh work might come to you. The past period has seen much inner progress towards realisation.... You are much freer, my brother, and the energy of the soul is beginning to sweep more freely through the vehicles—cleansing and revitalising. You have presumably followed my instructions and suggestions and the result has justified the experiment. I suggest that you still continue as you have been doing, building in the attitude of constant and continuous meditation.
Still for you I have no changed word. Go forward as you are now doing and continue to focus your attention upon the four rules I earlier gave you. You have, as I have told you, made progress and a little longer work along the established lines will see you breaking—past recovery—old thought habits and ancient forms.
Be not discouraged because I am making no change in your work. The task you undertook was a hard one and the effectiveness of sustained effort and reiterated endeavour is adequate. Why then employ a different tool when the one to hand is effective and clean? I will, however, make one suggestion: Work more carefully with individuals, with people you meet, with your friends in the same line of thought and with your co-disciples. Give them, in love, more of yourself. You have more to give than two years ago. Give of what you have gained and lose yourself in active service. Work more intensively, therefore, from the day you receive this communication from me.
One hint I will give you as to your personal concern over the little daughter. Be not unduly concerned as to her unfoldment. Let not your anxiety for her to measure up to your ideal force her to tread a way which is one that you desire. She also  is a soul and has her own path to go. Your part is to love without a change, no matter what occurs. Take her each day into the light and, by the use of your imagination, link her with the master of her life, the soul behind the scenes. Do this as a soul yourself; your soul and her soul then will work out the problem together.
BROTHER OF MINE:
Certain changes have taken place in your life lately and by your decisions you grow and by your decisions you must abide. You have endeavoured to take those decisions in the light; it is intent that counts with us, the teachers on the inner side, even if this intent is not correctly realised by the physical brain consciousness. Now you are entering into what might be regarded as a new incarnation. At this significant moment of your life, therefore, I would say a word of warning and of guidance. Live not so utterly within yourself but forget yourself. The past lies behind you. The future will be of your own making in a truer sense than ever before. There is no present moment but each coming second determines simultaneously the future and expresses the past. The past works out through the medium of the very qualities you demonstrate; the future sows the seeds of further good or evil. For you particularly those seeds originate in the thought life.
The group unity and life is affected by the thought content of the disciples who form the group. See to it that what you put into the general current of thought power is of significance. Continue with the work of purifying thought but do this not so much by constantly fighting undesirable thoughts as by substituting dynamic good thought for those facile thoughts which are the result of wrong thought habits. Endeavour, therefore, to be of a vital usefulness to my group by cultivating beauty in your thought. Read deeply and widely—a thing you have never done. But read with the intent to serve your fellowmen through the medium of that which has been gained in this manner.
See that your friendships are with men and with your fellow disciples among the men. With men, your work will lie when  the lower nature is better purified and cleansed. I am training this group of disciples, affiliated with my Ashram, for service and they will have to function as a group—both on the inner and the outer planes. Have this in mind in all you do.
I seek this year to give you some set meditation form to follow and I include in it a mantram which you can use daily or when swept by the self-pity which troubles you at this time. The attached meditation form can be followed by you for the rest of the year, when I will again take up the matter with you. It is to be done rapidly, with strict attention and a one-pointed focus, using the following seed thoughts.
1st month—I think no thought, I dream no dream that could harm my brother, and thereby dim his light.
2nd month—I see my brother in the light and with him walk the Path.
3rd month—I say no word that might direct the thoughts of other men and thus bring harm; I shield my brother from every harmful word.
4th month—I hear my brother's note and with it blend my own.
5th month—Unto my group I give the gain of all the past, my love and understanding.
6th month—That wisdom which is mine, that strength and power belong to all. This I must deepen and, with love, contribute to the whole.
Above all, my brother, arrest each unloving thought; stamp out each critical action and teach yourself to love all beings—not in theory but in deed and in truth. Peace be to you and strength to tread the Way.
You have made many changes both in your life and in yourself and so encouraging has been the result that I do not seek to alter aught that I earlier gave you. Keep up the meditation work but increase your field of service by your readiness to recognise the need of others and then to give them of your  supply. Train yourself to recognise need during the next few months. It will aid in increasing your occult sensitivity and drive out the last few signs of your ancient and deep-seated self-pity. Study with care what I earlier gave you, renew your consecration and re-orient yourself to the light ahead and within.
One practical suggestion I make with a view to your increased facility in expression: Write more. Correspond more with others and put your thoughts and ideas on paper in so far as they can be of service to other people. You need a larger field of expression and your spiritual diary could aid you much if you would seek each day to use it to the full. I urge not the writing down of morbid thoughts and self-centred ideas and aspirations. I urge you, however, to register in writing the fleeting ideas, the dimly sensed teaching and the intuitions which are sent to you from your soul or which surround you as a part of the group aura. Reflect on this and work at increasing your responsiveness to spiritual ideas and in recording those ideas in words....
How shall we deepen the expression of love in your life? How can we intensify the activity of your soul through the medium of your personality? Are you satisfied with the way you have "loved all beings" during the past six months or has that side of your life been somewhat inhibited?
In loving other people in the true and spiritual sense and in serving them (no matter who or what they are), you will find your main and immediate objective expressed. For you, the releasing power of love is essential but it must be the love of the soul, and not personality love, which must be demonstrated. When your personality is flooded with love, you will learn this significant occult lesson that those people whom you despise and those people who are antagonistic to you are as you are; between you and them lies no difference, save perhaps the difference of greater knowledge on your part and, therefore, greater responsibility to express the love of the soul.
You are still separative, my brother and the magnetic quality of your soul still lacks. You still occultly "repudiate" certain  people and your own critical, self-centred mind frequently relegates many to the limbo of your dislikes. When this is the case, you inevitably receive from them that which you give to them, and the wall of separation continues to mount higher and higher.
I always speak to those who are in my group of disciples with frankness. Hence my criticism of your attitude and hence my emphatic statement to you now that you do not love enough. You are too prone to criticism, to self-defense and to self-assertiveness.
But having said this I must be equally frank and tell you that you have made real progress. You have stood steady under several years of strain and difficulty and you have not deviated from your allegiance to your soul. Nor will you. Years ago you pledged yourself to tread the Path; your pledge was noted and recorded. Those who watch have realised that your determination is as strong as ever and your will to progress is as intense as in the early days. Let me, therefore, assure you that it is the life tendency that counts. Your life tendency is towards the light and you will enter into light some day. Your work at this time is along the lines of an intensive purification. The need for this you have realised and you have demanded to be purified. The work is going forward.
My brother, when I say that you need to love more, I speak not of the distorted love of the emotional nature but of that pure disinterested love which acts as a magnet to other souls because it is a soul quality, universally shared. This, you know you lack. That which clogs the channels and hinders its free and full flow is your sensitive self-assertiveness which sees everybody in relation to yourself and is not concerned with what you, as a person, may mean to them. Reflect on these words for they hold for you the key to progress. I am taking the time to write to you on this matter for it is of prime importance in your case. Your patient endurance of difficulties, your earnest and keen aspiration and your service to the work which I am doing is oft rendered null and void by your inner antagonisms and your outer separative attitude to those whom you do not like and who do not like you— consequently.
I told you earlier to teach yourself to "recognise the need." Had you done this during the past few months, your way would have been easier and your work would have been much simplified. Everybody you meet has some need and many are very unhappy. Give them of your fullness and know yourself to be a soul. You have been taught much. You walk somewhat in the light. They do not. Hence yours is the responsibility to understand, not theirs. Work, therefore, strenuously at attaining love to all beings and fit yourself to serve the Plan more effectively and your group brothers more understandingly. My heart goes out to you, my brother of old, for I know the problem which you face but I also know your strength and courage. You will succeed—some day.
Keep in touch with W.D.B. and talk your problem out with him. He can and will help you from his own experiences and you can also give him much. I had considered changing your meditation but feel, after due thought, that there is still much in it for you.... My brother, may the strength and the light of your soul inspire you and may that deep love which is your soul's heritage pour through you. Should you, during the next few months, need my thought and help, you have my permission to approach me as you do at the time of each full moon. I can trust you not to call me from my work without due cause.
I sometimes wonder what I can do to help you or what words I can say which will enable you to break through the limitations which surround you. There is a measure of freedom possible for you at this time and which will mark the high water mark of this incarnation for you but as yet you have not managed to achieve it. If I tell you that you have made little progress the past few months, you will be discouraged and that I do not desire. If I tell you that your self-interest has intensified lately, you will perhaps not believe me and in any case you will be distressed. Of your sincerity, there is not the slightest doubt. Of your ultimate success, I am equally confident. Of your present static condition I am, however, equally sure. What  then can I say, my brother? What can I do in order to destroy this old and limiting rhythm?
One thing I do feel the need to point out and that is that you and L.T.S-K.—each in your different ways—are holding back the group. Your co-disciples cannot go on as a group until you have both stepped your vibration up higher. Your present vibration is lower and slower than theirs. The problem would not be solved, however, by your leaving the group or resigning. You are an integral part of the group upon the inner planes and that remains an esoteric fact.
Will you please study anew my last instructions to you and ponder upon them with renewed interest. Note again what I said to you—for your encouragement—anent your life tendency and be not the least discouraged by my present frankness. Remove your eyes from off yourself and seek liberation in serving others and in loving all men. There are those you do not love. Until you love them as a soul should love, you will not tread the Way of Liberation. There is hatred in your heart and a sense of strong distaste for some you know and who are close to you in this incarnation. Wrench that hatred out and seek to offer love and understanding. Therein, frankly, lies your problem. Get rid of hatred and self-pity and you will leap ahead upon the Path.
I stand by you, friend of old. I know and—believe me—understand. I see your strength and I know your weakness. In the vision of the world's need and in the magnitude of humanity's hour, take hold of your problem; learn to love and understand and so enter into light.
MY FRIEND OF OLD:
For such you are and have been and such I trust you will remain. I say this for your strengthening and encouragement. You have made a real effort, and progress has resulted during the past few months. Today, you walk not all the time in the darkness of self-pity and of self-interest. You are freer from the thoughtforms of the past. I can look towards you and catch your aura with greater ease and with not too great a vibratory shock.
Forget not, any of you, that for senior disciples upon the Path (and such am I), it is relatively as unpleasant from the vibratory angle to contact you or spend some time within the radius of your aura as it would be for you to enter the sleeping room of those of soiled environment and persons. Disciples are apt to forget this. The way for all of us is the way of sacrifice. Your aura is much clearer and the impediments to contact are twenty per cent less. For this, I can and do commend you and, in commending, urge you to proceed with the task of purification and cleansing. I ask this for the sake of your own soul and for that of your fellow disciples. There is real need for this group to work as a group ... but this will only be possible when unity of purpose, steadiness of rhythm and purity of the united auras have been achieved. See to it, my friend, that you continue to do your share.
All I seek to do today for you is to speak this word of commendation and to give you certain words and phrases upon which you should meditate until I again communicate with you. I am hoping that after the Full Moon of May (the Wesak Festival) I may be able to change your work so that you can begin the next meditation. This will depend upon the adequacy of the preparation done until the Full Moon of May. It will also depend upon whether you and L.T.S-K. can free yourselves from glamour—you from the glamour of the personal self and he from the glamour of his own thoughtforms. The words and phrases which I have chosen for the theme of your meditation are as follows:
I stand upon the mountain top and breathe the air whereby the sons of God must live.
I seek to love and with my love to live. I seek not love for my own little self.
Let the fires of divinity burn out all dross. Let the pure gold emerge. Give me the gold of living love to shower upon the sons of men.
Into the light of the radiant Presence of the Self I pass and join all souls in service.
I tread the lighted Way into the hearts of men. I serve my brother and his need. Those whom I, the little self, love not, I serve with joy because I love to serve.
Naught holds me now, except the bonds of love I hold in my own soul.
MY BROTHER OF OLDEN TIME:
Forget not that it is not simply this group work and the fact that you have been chosen to work in my group of disciples which accounts for that which has been brought about. There is a karmic link with me which persists and holds. I say no more.
The commendations which I gave you in my last instruction stand repeated. I waste not time over such matters. You have the power to go on whether commended or not and whether successful in your efforts or not. There is somewhat, however, that I have to say to you today and it can be stated in simple words: You need fuller emotional expression. There is such an intense focussing within yourself as the result of a long spiritual struggle—with yourself and with circumstances—that pent up forces are gathered into the personality which must have release. How shall this release be brought about? What can you do which will intensify your outer expression and thus break the personality tension?
I have pondered upon this on your behalf, my brother. You have been triumphant in your battle and are much freer from your lower inclinations than ever before. But you stand now like a tired and disillusioned soldier wondering if it has been worthwhile. You feel at times that you can do no more; you are still a soldier, still pledged to the fight, still undeterred, but all your forces are interiorly focussed; the tide of life and the  play of energies—as understood upon the Path of Discipleship—are dammed up within you. This is in reality a form of static personality glamour. The personal crisis and problems loom too large. You do not see things in their true perspective.
I have decided that the way of release for you will come in the writing each day of a diary which will embody certain releasing forces and which can—if truly and conscientiously carried out—bring you much and eventually carry to your co-disciples something of beauty and of joy. I am not fanciful or unduly optimistic nor am I asking you to undertake something which will land you still deeper in the maya of futility. I am suggesting something which will fill your life with vitality, expression and make you radiant.
Each evening write your diary from four points of view. Let it be written with real thought and a determination to find something to relate in connection with each point. This will engender in you a constant watchfulness over your daily life, a vital attentiveness to life as it is lived around you and a reflective daily meditative attitude which is to take the place of the prolonged, definite, morning meditation. The four points to be dealt with and covered in your diary are as follows:
1. What things, attitudes, and words of beauty did I come across today? Note these down and note also your reactions to them when recognised—a sunset of radiant colour; a face or look which brought good remembrance; a paragraph in a book which illumined your mind. Write it all down so as to share it with your fellow disciples. Write, for instance, the paragraph which attracted your attention or the spoken words which brought you light. Hunt every day for beauty and record it.
2. What act of service did I render which was other than my usual programme? What services did I note that other people were rendering? List what you see your fellow-men doing each day that strikes a note of selfless service and learn thereby the wonder of the human being. Give your reactions to that which you record.
3. What colour or colours predominated in my life today? Upon the physical plane—a blaze of sunshine, the grey of a rainy day, the blue of the sky, the riot of colour in  the flowers in a garden or a shop? Upon the astral plane—the rose of affection and of friendly feeling, the blue of an inspiring contact, the gold of physical well being, the interplay of colours which your emotional nature can be trained to recognise?
4. What dramas came my way today, in my own life or in the life of others? Seek for drama under the dull exterior of a person, in the world of daily happenings as you see it functioning around you. See it everywhere—the drama of life as lived by yourself, your environing associates, and also the nations of the world. Evoke and cultivate the sense of the immanent beauty of drama, and note the recognition of it in your diary; note also the lessons to be learnt as you sense and study them.
This diary will reveal to you what you lack; it will train you in the objective and subjective recognitions which you so much need; it will lift you out of yourself and will carry to you revelation and joy and an enlarging horizon. Ponder upon the words: Beauty, colour, service, outer relationships, inner linkings. No more I give you now except my blessing.